No zzzzs.

I am turning into an insomniac.

Either that or red wine has the same effect as caffeine on me. Sleepless nights.

I managed to fall asleep only at 4 plus am, after trying reaallly hard since 1. And I woke up sharp 7. Like. Wake up. And I've been awake since.

I want to be able to zzz normally. And by normally, I mean my type of normally. Where I can sleep as late as I want and wake up when I'm supposed to (15 minutes before work) and be happy with however many hours I slept cause I voluntarily did so.

Whilst they both work out sort of the same (i.e. I don't get a lot of hours on weekdays) one is against my will. And while there's nothing really wrong with it, it feels extremely restless!

I stare at the ceiling, I try to read my book, I try to surf the net, I try to search for people still awake and online to kacau, I twist and turn on the bed, I unpacked some boxes of books, I thought up of ideas for my business, I drew up my ideas, blabediblabeda.

I hope tonight if I sleep late, it's due to my being awake, not my being forced by the cosmic forces to stay awake.

I like my zzzzzs...I really really love 'em.